Accept it. People change. Today's outing was quite a failure. Less than 50% attendance is just that bad. Blame it on me being too anxious. There was nothing i can do about it. Its just so difficult to organise. Busy. Everybody is busy. Just too bad. Not everyone is as free as me. Too free, to be exact. Life of a loner. Maybe thats the new standard. Next time expectation don't be too high. At least when things turn out badly, then i won't feel so sad.
Guessed it yesterday that things would end up this way. Should have went fishing with my father. It has been so long since i last met my friends. It has been even longer since i last went fishing. Bad decision. But like i said, there's nothing i can do about it. Cannot just tell me cannot. Dun keep quiet and at the last minute, or maybe last second then tell me, "Erm. I have something on. Cannot make it. Sorry." Hey. Come on. U know u will be going out with some other ppl. Just tell me u cannot come. I'm fine. Dun just keep quiet. Even if u go out with people u know i do not wish to see, just tell me. Why would i blame u? Just say ppl ask u first. I will accept it. Don't lie till its so fake.
Maybe its just me. But i feel happier like dat. Why go out with ppl u do not wish to see and hear. Its not that i do not wish to see the whole lot of ppl. Its just i do not wish to see that one person. People hang around as a group. If u are not part of the group, u will just be left out and weird. Calling the rest except for that one person will be even more weird. Somehow or rather, that person just mysteriously turn up.
Haha. Too critical, maybe i am. Thats the reason why Jun Jie and me click quite well.
"Hey, he kao peh too much. Very unnecessary. I don't like him."
"Haha. Me too. He everything also must kao peh one"
"Oh... The floor is too rough. Spoil my shoes."
"The air here is too dusty. Dirty my shirt."
"Ahaahaha."
"Hey sit so far away, don't u think its too obvious?"
"U think i care?"
"Hahaha. Same same."
"I dun sit with low class ppl. KP too much."
"Hahahaha."
Anyway, make do with wad we have, it was quite a fun day. Come on la. Nothing affects me that badly. Dun care and thats it. -dun care- Lala. Went watch The Warlords today with just Melissa and fatty. Slash and hack movie. Blood splash everywhere. But quite nice la. Jun Jie joined us for dinner at Swensons. He just came back from Brunei and now he got his Jungle Confidence Course badge to put on his uniform liao. Soon, before he commission as officer, he will complete his Combat Skill Badge also. Plus the IPPT Gold that he already has. Power pack. Life of a cadet, soon to be an officer. Me just a man. Cannot compare. Haha.
Thanks to all who turned up today. Just 3 to be exact. Its just so difficult to organise. Maybe all thats left is :c4: or maybe 5. Ah. Who cares. Definitely not me. Calvin don't care. Lala.
Cal
found sought peace at 23:18.
